Kym Marsh was 'utterly lost' after son Archie's death
- Bang Showbiz
- 20 March 2017
Kym Marsh was left "utterly lost" after the death of her son Archie, and says she believes she only made it through because of her other children
Kym Marsh was left "utterly lost" after the death of her son Archie.
The 'Coronation Street' star was devastated in 2009 when her son Archie passed away moments after being born prematurely after just 21 weeks.
Recently, Kym has had to relive the traumatic experience as her character on the ITV soap Michelle Connor lost her son Ruairi at 23 weeks, and almost killed herself as a result.
Now, the brunette beauty says that she sympathises with her character, as she believes things could have been much worse for her if she didn't have her children David and Emilie - who were 13 and 11 respectively at the time - to help her through the grieving process.
Opening up about her experiences, Kym said: "After Archie died I was utterly lost. I never got to the point of thinking about taking my own life, but I don't know how I might have felt if I hadn't had two young children and a good support network around me.
"I know that others who have lost children have found themselves in the same situation as Michelle. I can totally understand how people feel like they can't carry on. When I lost Archie, all I could think was, 'Why has this happened to me?'
"I had carried a baby for nearly six months and yet what did I have? What was the point in it all? Archie wasn't even weighed, I don't know why, and he didn't have a birth certificate. All I had was a leaflet they gave me when I left hospital.
"It feels so pointless that you can't stand it, and you do lose yourself. I didn't want to go outside, I didn't want to see anyone, I didn't want to hear anyone laughing. How could anyone laugh when my son has died? I just wanted to stay hidden away forever. But you do learn to accept it and move forward.
"And I'm lucky to have three amazing kids. David and Emilie are grown up now and Polly is a little whirlwind and a delight."
And Kym admits she was told at the time of the plot - which took place in January - that she didn't have to go through with it, but wanted to take on the challenge in "honour" of Archie.
She added to The Sun newspaper: "When Kate Oates, the executive producer, first spoke to me about the story she made it clear I didn't have to go through with it.
"But I'm always saying this subject shouldn't be taboo and should be talked about. Talking about it is the thing that makes it easier to accept.
"I wanted to help women like me, and I wanted to honour Archie. I knew it would be really painful but this is an issue that affects thousands of families every year and it's something that often isn't talked about.
"But we both felt if we were going to do the storyline, we should really do it.
"I wanted to show people all of those little things that really hurt me. Michelle heard other babies crying on the ward, and that's exactly what happened to me.
"It was also important her son's death was called not a birth, but a 'late miscarriage' because that is what happens."