Gemma Collins' opens up about heartbreaking miscarriage
Former 'TOWIE' star Gemma Collins went to the National TV Awards just hours after suffering a miscarriage in 2012 because she didn't want anyone to know what had happened.
Gemma Collins has opened up about her heartbreaking miscarriage when she was four-and-a-half-months pregnant.
The former 'TOWIE' star didn't even realise she was pregnant in 2012 when she was struck by excruciating pains and ended up giving birth on her landing at home.
Speaking on new show 'In Therapy', she explained: "I woke up with excruciating pains. My mum was like, 'You've got a bad stomach', and I'm thinking, 'Nah, something's not right here'.
"I rang an ambulance. I ended up giving birth on my landing to this four-and-a-half-month old baby.
"The next minute they put me in the ambulance and this woman is going to me, 'Do you want to bury your baby? Do you want to sign it over for scientific research?'"
Despite Gemma's heartache, she still attended the National Television Awards later that evening because she didn't want anyone to know what had happened.
She said: "My mum started crying, but I knew I had to go and perform at the National Television Awards. I had loads of padding on because I was bleeding heavily, but to the outside world they wouldn't know."
Gemma fell pregnant when she was in a five- year relationship with a City Banker but had no idea that she was expecting and was still on the pill.
Speaking previously, she said: "I didn't know I was pregnant because I've got polycystic ovaries.
"The doctor said the embryo wouldn't be a good one because I'd been taking medication. I got three doctors' opinions - I still felt really guilty about it, though."
"I do feel guilty. What if I can never have a baby now? The miscarriage felt like God's way of punishing me."