Calum Best blamed himself for father's death
Calum Best has admitted he blamed himself for the death of his father, footballer George Best, often finding himself questioning whether he was "driving" his dad to drink
Calum Best blamed himself for his father's death.
The 'Celebrity Big Brother' star's father, footballer George Best, passed away at the age of just 59 in 2005 after suffering multiple organ failure and Calum has admitted he found himself questioning whether he had "drove" his dad to drink in the first place.
In a video for the National Association of Children of Alcoholics charity, which Calum supports, he said: "I always used to think to myself: 'Is it my fault?' I tried to learn to blame it on the booze.
"But then I'd sometimes be annoyed and think: 'Why didn't my old man, if he loved me enough, why didn't he stop drinking? Was I not worth it?' That always got to me because I always thought: 'Jesus, is it my fault? Am I driving my dad to drink?'"
The 34-year-old star also admitted he suffers from "deep, dark issues" following the loss of his father.
He added: "As much of a great person as he was, I had a father who was an alcoholic, who was never there for me, and it affects me in the long term. I have some deep, dark issues now because of not having my dad around.
"I would have maybe two hours in a day where I could find my dad, when it was before, or maybe after one or two drinks, before it started going down a dark road. During those one or two hours, then we could get along."