Jonathan Antoine: BGT saved me
Jonathan Antoine says 'Britain's Got Talent' saved him from suicide because he reached rock bottom before auditioning for the show.
Jonathan Antoine says 'Britain's Got Talent' saved him from suicide.
The opera singer admits he reached rock bottom last year and was driven to self-harm because of chronic insomnia brought on by a stressful period with his school workload and choir duties.
He said: "I felt that life was pointless. I was suicidal.
"I felt like I was on a roller coaster that only went up and I was just waiting for a drop. A catastrophic drop. It did come eventually and it was not pleasant.
"I'd get home collapse on my bed and then wake up at one or two in the morning. I'd just be sitting in my room thinking, 'What do I do now?'
"My life just felt pointless. The whole thing. I felt like I was going to be at school forever and just die there.
"I had suicidal thoughts. It was a serious thing. I was a danger to myself. I would self-harm. I'd cut my arms and my torso.
"I thought about it constantly for two months. There were times when I could have ended it.
However, Jonathan - who is set to release an album with his singing partner Charlotte Jaconelli - says success on the Simon Cowell-fronted show has helped him turn his life around and feel better about himself.
He added in an interview with The Sun newspaper: "This has definitely helped me. I'm not a man of faith but this feels like a miracle.
"Now, I don't wake up at one in the morning. I come home at one in the morning.
"And I am tired now because I'm doing something I love to do. I feel very happy."