Beverley Callard wanted death
'Coronation Street' actress Beverley Callard has revealed she ''wanted to die'' last year because she didn't know how to cope with her clinical depression
Beverley Callard "wanted to die" because she didn't know how to cope with her clinical depression.
The 'Coronation Street' actress - who plays feisty landlady Liz McDonald - has spoken out about how she became so unwell with the mental illness, her friends thought she looked like a "100-year-old woman" who was days from death.
She explained in her autobiography 'Unbroken': "I wanted to die because that seemed the only way it would stop.
"There was a time when I couldn't walk, I didn't clean my teeth, wash my hair. A friend came to see me and said I was just curled up in a ball on the bed and looked like a 100-year-old woman. He just came out and cried and thought, 'She's going to die.' "
The 53-year-old actress was admitted to the Priory rehabilitation centre in February last year, where she started to recover following electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) - where electrodes were attached to her head and she was shocked from the current.
Discussing her course of 12 treatments, she said: "It's a really controversial treatment.
"I'm an actress so I have a vivid imagination, but I thought I could smell burning flesh.
"It's difficult to say without sounding full of self pity, but I was so very ill that I didn't care what they tried. I just thought, 'Well, nothing can hurt me more than I'm hurting now.' "