Bee Asha Singh on Spit It Out: 'It started off as something that could use all of our creative outlets to deal with our separate traumas'
- Becca Inglis
- 17 June 2019
Scottish rapper discusses appearing in Léa Luiz de Oliveira's documentary and opening up a dialogue around sexual assault
We need to talk more about sex, according to The Honey Farm rapper Bee Asha Singh. Not just the basics and the how-tos, but the nitty gritty nuances of consent, desire, and learning how to communicate. Singh would know. Three years ago she was raped on holiday in Thailand, and she has been managing its impact ever since.
She's teamed up with film director Léa Luiz de Oliveira and animator Nisan Yetkin to appear in the documentary Spit It Out, which pools their collective talents to open up a dialogue around sexual assault. Using film, poetry, and animation, it documents the therapeutic, and at times uneasy, relationship between recovery and creativity. 'It started off as something that could use all of our creative outlets to deal with all of our separate traumas,' says Singh. 'It is based around me, but it was definitely putting all of our recovery within it.'
The project has grown into a plea for all of us to air our sexual wants and hang-ups and make room for better, more consensual sex. It's about foregoing repression and making space for questions so we can all be better educated about each other's boundaries. 'You should be able to talk not only with your sexual partner, but with your friends, even sometimes with family,' says Luiz de Oliveira. 'It's such a taboo subject, but it's part of our daily lives and it has more consequences that we realise.'
Singh faces a dilemma over the course of the film. Taking antidepressants has helped her manage symptoms like depression and agoraphobia, but she increasingly feels that they are also hampering her creativity. A transcontinental trip isn't part of the original plan, but when Singh feels the pull to her father's childhood home in India, Luiz de Oliveira is right behind with camera in tow. 'It was really scary to have to leave again because last time I was away I was really hurt,' says Singh. 'India's like that middle-ground safe space. So often, when I've had bad experiences, or I'm struggling with something, I'll go there to get the tools I need to come home and feel whole again.'